I know that I haven’t been on here for a long while. But the last week was really rough. The result of the Election was terrible. I was filled with anxiety, fear, worry, anger, and I was so filled up with depression and despair that I was contemplating suicide. Yeah it was REAL bad. Thankfully my family gave me some real tough love, and got me through it. And to add insult to injury, I had Covid for a week and missed two weeks of class. I’m getting better but the weight of last week still remains with me. So here’s what my plan is for the rest of the year and for the new year, and for the next few years. I deleted my Deviantart and Tumblr accounts. I haven’t been using those websites for the last few years and I just don’t have the mindset or patience to use those sites anymore. Deviantart was dead after the Eclipse setting back in 2020 and a lot of my favorite artists have left or stopped posting afterwards. And Tumblr is like a middle school version of Twitter. So no way in hell I’m coming back to that website. I’m NEVER using Twitter ever again. That website can go burn for all I care. Fuck Elon Musk. Dude can drop dead! I’d use Bluesky, but I’m limiting myself to that website too. Though it’s great that a lot of people are moving from Twitter to Bluesky. Which is smart because I don’t know why anyone would want to still be on there for more than a minute. But I’m not going to glue myself to that website for mental health reasons. And I’m thinking about deleting my instagram account because of the same reasons. Look everyone. I know know that we’re all scared about what’s going to happen next year or even the next minute. But to me, this is going to be like 2017-2021. Only difference is that I’m not going to glue myself to social media every time something bad happens. I just can’t keep doing that to myself anymore. I just can’t. I get no where when I’m worried about something I can’t control. I’m going to still use NewGrounds and YouTube. Since NG focuses more on art and animation and not anything political. And I can control what I want to watch and follow on YouTube. I’ll be in my 30s once the 2020s end. And I just can’t let myself get caught up in all this nonsense anymore. There’s a lot of bad habits that I need to break and I got to work on doing something other then worry about what some random people from Canada or France is saying about America and acting like they don’t have hate in their country either. I’m done. I just can’t do this to myself anymore. I’m going to come back to drawing what I want to draw and what I like and not worry too much about posting anything to get people to like my art. I miss those days. So I’m going to work on that and work on myself. Not sure if I should come back to Discord. I don’t think being back on a chat would be a good idea. Not right now. I need to finally make a change for myself. These last four years have been rough. Even when Biden was in charge, people still complained and acted like he would fix everyone’s problems for them in an instant. Ugh. Anyway. Just educate yourselves and stop pretending that the world hasn’t always been filled with idiots and people in charge that wanted to control everyone. I know it’s hard but it’s the reality of the world. But there’s always good people out there who will do what’s right and will stand up for what’s right. There’s always good things in the world that we overlook too much.